31 results for 'depression'
The holidays paint a picture of joy and happiness for many. Love, laughter, family and friends. For others, it’s a time of sadness and depression. It’s not the picture many of us want to envision, but the reality is that an equally dark picture does exist. As a child, I experienced both.
My Grandmother, our matriarch, died when I was nine and it sent my family spiraling down a world of depression and hoarding. The darkness crept in before her funeral. Disagreements over logistics divided our family for decades – the last thing my grandmother would have wanted. Her life was dedicated... (more)
I'm surrounded by silenceAs I sit alone in the night
The children sleep asThe keyboard clicks.
There's a lump building in my throatAnd butterflies in my abdomen
My hands shake, my heart fluttersMy mind runs scared
Blood courses through my veinsStill, the silence maintains
Is there anyone out there?(more)
...to get out of there. I couldn't take it anymore. The guilt is pulling me by the hair in the wrong direction. The anxiety is crippling me. Now what, where am I going? She drove with no destination in mind. The car was her chauffeur today. Let someone else decide for a change.
The depression was unhealthy today. Her head flooded with decaying thoughts. Everything was a trigger and nothing soothed. Her mind and body was exhausted and drained. Three years. I can't do this anymore.
The beach was a short drive from home. She tossed the bottle of water from the cup holder into ... (more)
There is a passenger that travels with me all of the time;a negative entity that threatens to devour my soul
For years it has followed wherever I have gone, and while it’s been quiet at times,perhaps even dormant,it always returns to haunt my waking dreams
Darkness that wraps me so tightly it takes my breath away, and as all light slowly disappears,my sight narrows, and all beauty and joy fades away,eclipsed by the shadows of my sorrows
Then there’s another side of me,one that's dying to be set free;a positive being that knows its own worth
One that sees the pain... (more)
I’m having a hard time keeping the relationship I have with my sister together. She used to be so funny, kind-hearted and happy, and my absolute best friend in the whole world. In the last five years she’s turned in to an extremely negative person who is hard to be around. She did go through a rough patch in her life, and I thought if I was supportive and understanding she’d come around. A few years have passed since then, and I’ve drawn the conclusion that she simply doesn’t want to do the work it takes to be happy. I’ve tried being patient, talking to her calmly, giving... (more)
... mania is irrational and harmful as Mr. Krugman explains in the previously cited column,
"For those who know their 1930s history, this is all too familiar. If either of the current debt negotiations fails, we could be about to replay 1931, the global banking collapse that made the Great Depression great. But, if the negotiations succeed, we will be set to replay the great mistake of 1937: the premature turn to fiscal contraction that derailed economic recovery and ensured that the Depression would last until World War II finally provided the boost the economy needed."
After a... (more)
...dreams and your heart against the rocks of reality; Lifelines are the people who have seen you at your best and as a complete emotional wreck, Lifelines are the people you can call after midnight to come be with you in a moment of anger (calm you down), vulnerability (shoulder to cry on) or depression (they come with tissue, an ear and chicken soup). Lifelines are the people who love you no matter who you date or dump, who love you if you gain twenty pounds or lose them, who love you with or without make-up, in times of great poverty or wealth. Lifelines manage you well and see beneath the ... (more)
Working as a registered nurse in western medicine was my career choice for over 22 years, i am now retired and recovering from some medically induced issues. A synopsis of my story, I was adopted by abusive parents, I began eating as a way of escaping my emotions and pain, I became severly depressed, was given antidepressants, I was so fat that I was given huge amounts, I began to lose weight, but the dose never came down like my weight, so my body reacted to the high doses of antidepressants by having a manic episode.
I was diagnosed as bipolar, after only one event of mania, and after... (more)
The Clown’s Mask
Dear little clown, you bring such joy
A smile for some and others you annoy
Dear clown, you are so funny,
You make cloudy days seem sunny
Such finesse with your craft,
Tell me, who makes you laugh
Is there endless joy in your life?
Have you met any strife?
A constant smile on your face
You seem to fit in every place
Always up and ready to give
In constant mirth, you must live
But wait, little clown, I see something new
It isn’t obvious to all, but perhaps to a few
That your... (more)
A mere thought enters my open and wounded heart.
It begins to grow thicker and thicker,
Like a bacteria in a Petri dish, it grows and festers
Taking over the wound as it’s new home, its new acquisition,
Stolen, and conquered like barbaric warriors take over their spoils,
Like fierce ants that feed on a corpse
Till its hollowed shell crumbles and disintegrates into dust
Then is swept away by a brisk and cold wind.
I shout at God for help,
And then I beg for relief from this hunger, this burden of thoughts
That pounds me into... (more)