127 results for 'Uttam Gill'
11 years back I lost my mother. Her last days were really very painful. She tried hard and ultimately gave up because she couldn't bear the pain. I witnessed her rapid degeneration which subsequently turned into multi system atrophy. She endured the agonizing moments with dignity which left an indelible mark over me. I need to answer her by following her. I still remember the scorching heat of Indian summer the way she kept us safe. Yes, you kept us safe in all the weather. How can I forget the long black hair; the sight of you sitting out in the sun with hair open in one of those cold Sunday... (more)
All the time when I failed I tried to shrug away my past to begin new life. With bitterness I consigned my relations to my ill fate. I wondered at my failure and comprehend the reality of my life. They all left with their beautiful and convincing answers but never came back to see me again. I did not know what to do. They made me understand that something wrong with me. Whatever it was but I am thankful to them for enduring my shortcomings. I LIKED THE WAY THEY ANSWERED.
I ask question that why we have to do all those things which comes under the moral scrutiny. Is it a compulsion? Do... (more)
The mystic of swirling life,
If I wonder, I lie.
Over the wretched and charred emotions,
I smiled but tears belied.
Contesting the truth with constructive lies,
To escape, I cannot, but may try.
Over the ruins of struggle of the days past,
I inspire to continue till last.(more)
As the time goes by…
I know you won’t pretend…
Many a time you have asked many
And I answered nothing
But you in your questions on your own found the answers.
In the formalities of quarries
You enacted and followed the conventions
And you defined me as liar.
I am left with nothing…
I am left with only armor of love
And that too failed to defend me…
I lied that I am not wounded…
I smiled and you never saw the pain oozing out…
You celebrated your question over my smile…
My answers never breathed... (more)
I invite each one of you to undertake journey into the dream World of “Cyberpolis”. I know that you never heard of this word before. You must be wondering about “Cyberpolis”? I was equally wondering when this word I instinctively coined after experiencing the metrics of Cyber world. I understood the prominence of cyber world and its existence. I am treading into the unconventional domain of thinking and perhaps it would appeal your mind too. I wonder at the emerging polis and foresee the radical shift in evolution of our collective thinking. How this is going to transform and what shape it... (more)
More of the life gives less And sky is the one which always redressMy grand ma’s lore about the sky
Titillated narration made me sigh At my mother’s lap for hours to gaze star.Now from oblivion rescuing memories that was kept ajar.Sky as repository has kept my dreams
I hold many hours of twinkling gleamHopping the stars with moon as spring boardFrom the vastness of silence borrowing the nodeScriptures of my thoughts imbedded to twinkling starsI Beholds the mesmerizing pageantry up so farSo many wonders to wander at par Flying Birds when extend it pretends the silken thread... (more)
I just cannot forget the hot sultry days of Bamrauli Air force station in Allahabad. Haunting melodies of 60’s were also making way into the lives of Airmen of Indian Air Force. And one of the most haunting music of its time came in movie by name ‘COME SEPTEMBER’. My father was an Airman and the mess parties were regular feature. Like many other youngsters I too always brazenly tried to hone my twisting skills in those mess party’s. And the music of ‘COME SEPTEMBER’ could elicit the best out of me. I can vividly recall a dainty girl in pink frock when I met her first time in one of the party... (more)
Looking at the sky it is so dull and high;
I wonder over my thirsty and the ploughed land.
To the patches of clouds I begged, I raised my hand
Stop for a while, pour few drops
At your mercy my life my crops
The cruel gust of wind took away my hope
I cried, tears rolls down to my cheeks
Through my parched lips and choking throat
I bid farewell to the unkind clouds
Once again I looked towards the sky
It is still very dull and high
I looked down
I saw a blade of grass
Standing majestically with dignity and... (more)
She is vanishing into the dark folds of…. The immortal remain of her past
Like a distant sound fading away so fast
We are speechless We are helpless
I wish I could keep the death away
Let we say that she stay
Let we pray that she stay
Oh! God keep the demon away
This is not the time for him to play his rhyme
Let her see once more sun shining
Let here see once more world smiling
God I know this must me your mistake
How can she have such a fate?
It is not too late.
Let her live life once more with gait... (more)
Interestingly at this prime age of my redeeming youth (any body wondering) I am sharing with you my accidental wandering into the work of great scholars like Freud, Ellis. Kraft Ebbing and Paul Robinsons etc. They covered exhaustively the psychosexual phenomenon that includes the following:Erotic dreams Day time fantasies Narcissism Theory of tumescence Love and courtship Sadism Masochism Fetishism Exhibitionism Bestiality Transvestism
The salacious books, prostitution and forms of mental or physical licentiousness are also the subject they covered extensively.