8 results for 'Selina Jane'
When I was twelve years old my dad gave me a standard HB pencil with a pink eraser, looked me square in the face and said “sell me this pencil.” I looked at him and went “Huh? It’s a pencil dad. what are you talking about?” He repeated his statement and said “I want you to sell me this pencil”. I thought about it for a few minutes quietly to myself. Trying to think about how I could make a regular old pencil sound appealing. I cleared my throat and proceeded to talk. I spoke not about the pencil itself, but about what the pencil represented; art, communication, letters to family members far... (more)
I was going through a spiraling depression... The lows were lower than low, deep down in the depths of darkness. I couldn't get it together. I couldn't figure out how to feel anything other than hopeless.
I scrapped seven paintings, stared at my cursor when I tried to write, and struggled to even talk or answer the phone. Getting dressed, showered, and outside was another challenge. Nothing mattered. I figured it was time to call my shrink, but I worried about my ability to get in the car and drive myself there. The act of actually “getting there” seemed so overwhelming to me, as did... (more)
I grew up used to hearing my mother insult my father, used to my father cheating with his scantily clad secretaries, and then buying my mom diamond “shut up” gifts. My family wasn’t what you would call “normal”, even though every holiday card, family event, and public portrayal would say otherwise.
Smile Sandy. Pretend you have a loving family who doesn’t hide a closet full of skeletons and resent. Pretend that you know what it means to love someone.
And I did smile.
For a few years…
Until the corners of my mouth just wouldn’t go up anymore.
Every relationship... (more)
Today is Black Friday, but did you know that it is also Buy Nothing Day? A 24-hour moratorium on consumer spending. You might balk and say "that's a stupid idea", but is it really? Look around you. What do you see? Our economy is in some serious trouble. Unemployment is at an all time high, divorce rates are through the roof, obesity is staggering, people are losing their homes, our kids watch more TV and play more video games than ever before and mental illness is rampant. We are constantly on the go. Trying to keep up with our bills, trying to stop the walls from crumbling.
But they... (more)
She preferred to hang around with queens and fags. Breeders just weren’t as interesting and always passed judgment on her extra-curricular activities and porn shop career! So what, if she sold ass plugs and dildos for a living… The people she met at work were far more interesting than any of the corporate robots who worked down the street in the business sector.
Sometimes it got slow during the day. She’d start putting batteries in things, cranking the funk, and dancing around the store like a freak. Occasionally the bells would jingle and someone would come into the store and catch... (more)
I used to run into him all the time at the local WalMart. I would be there loading up my cart with useless (but necessary) items such as; scarves, socks, pajamas, body wash, shampoo, laxatives, and tampons, while he was there with his cart full of smoking cessation aids such as; sunflower seeds, a jumbo pack of gum, “the patch”, and some of that nasty Nicorette gum. I always found it weird that he went to these great lengths to seemingly “stop smoking”, yet each and every time, at the checkout, he would still ask for a pack of cigs… Marlborough Lights.
One day while behind him in line... (more)
Mom used to always tell me that husbands lasted about as long as a roll of toilet paper. She sort of robbed me of any romanticized view of marriage I might have had. Now on husband number five (Jack) she had successfully transformed herself from a loving, nurturing mom to a cold-hearted money-grubbing bitch.
It was cool in my junior years at high school being dropped off in a Rolls Royce or limo once in while. But it quickly became old; as did the increase in age of the men she wed.
I still remember the way she used to look at dad. We might not have had much, but we were happy.... (more)
I remember a time when people asked me if I wanted kids and my response was “I don’t know” or “not right now”. I had a great career, a hot little bod, a cute MINI Cooper, and an active social life.
And then… It happened!
I remember lumbering around in my newly pregnant body looking at the moms clucking like hens on my street, or drinking their coffee in the park and thinking “I’m not like them.” I just didn’t see myself in their shoes.
When my girls were born (yes “girls” - I had TWO at one time) it was the most amazing moment of my life. The first year was incredibly hard... (more)
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