I could not loath her as I wanted to. Could not wish ill on her. All my energy, all my focus was aimed at her dismissal. Dismissal from my thoughts for she deserved not a moment of my attention. Unimportant, no impact on me. Satisfaction was not hers to have. Just the guilt and realization of who she was, is all she deserved. All she could look forward to. Self disgust, regret, shame, is what she deserved, but a moment in my thoughts? Definately not earned. How sad, the price you paid for a fleeting moment of attention.
You showed no regard for the life created and nurtured. Like a thief entering without permission, helping themselves as they wish. Draining. Destroying. A leech obessed. Your own desires above all others, your needs prevailing, despite the trail of destruction you'd leave behind. No ability to reconstrunct, you're useless even to yourself.
Your value diminished. Your self respect gone. Like an animal you scurry to gather whats left. Your integrity gone. Morals non-existant. Morsels of hope are all that remain. You hope for a mask so when you look in the mirror, you can hide all your shame. Shame in knowing you are indeed nothing.