Lately, it was quite a shock that some folks here on the broo have said that I really am a nice guy, and for the most part I am. You just happen to catch me on my good side. It's nice to hear that t I'm a good person... well I try to be. I'm not perfect and I don't brag that I am or not. I'm just livin'.
I have a enemy within and I'm not the only one. It brings out the ugly side of me and with that it brings out the ugly side in others because they have to retaliate on they're behalf, and you can't blame them for sticking up for themselves. A monster came out of me yesterday!
I was invited to a small party at Sharkeys in Manhattan Beach. That place is always packed and I'm not huge fan of crowds. I don't like people touching me while I have to make my way to the bar and it's a journey to get back to the table and usually your seat is taken. I never smile, hardly because I always feel on edge in those kind of places. You never know what bum is going to start some trouble and I have to be ready for it, just in case.
Lucky enough, my trouble was not inside the joint but outside. If you ever been to Sharkeys you will know that directly across the street is a very small parking structure. I knew it was going to be trouble and I felt it, but I went in anyways. At the entrance, I noticed this guy coming back from his little yoga class and I asked him if he was leaving. He said yeah. Unfortunately, there was a line of cars behind me and where this guy was parked I couldn't back up any further because I would hit the car behind me. So I moved forward to find another spot, so the person behind me got lucky with that spot. Further ahead a lady is making her way to her car and I waited for her to get out and this is where the drama began...
This lady for some reason was taking her sweet time and she knew I was waiting for her to move out. Meanwhile, the car behind me is now the yoga guy and he was beginning to honk the horn at me and that's where I was losing control! I lost my temper and I got out of my car and I threatened the yoga guy that I was going to jump on his piece of crap Mercedes Benz. I said more non-sense to him and I got back in my car. It didn't occur to me that this fella could have had a gun or knife on him and that would've been the end. I just couldn't think in that moment. This lady still didn't budge so I pulled up to her and I yelled something stupid and she yelled back but I didn't stay long enough to hear what she said. Finally, I found a parking spot and the rest of the night was OK. As I look back on it... I feel horrible and I don't like it. That's why I don't go out as much because deep down I know there's something going to happen. My natural reaction is to blame people in general which I do often. I have stated before that I don't like a lot of people. I can only blame myself! It takes a special person with PATIENCE to be a friend and with time they get to know that I'm really a nice guy, and like I said before... I'm not perfect!
PATIENCE: that's the word of the day and everyday. Did you know that the word is derived from the Latin word pati, which means to suffer! I didn't know that. Patience, is the ability to keep control over the impulse that rises suddenly when something disagreeable happens. Impatience, is the lack of self-control and leads to other and greater faults. It can easily grow into anger, irritability, harsh words, unpleasantness towards others. HA HA, does this sound familiar from the story I just told you? It's a virtue that should be practiced frequently!
I think the world will be a better place if we all practice patience. Let's be honest, what are the chances of that happening? Maybe slim to none, but at least I'm putting the word out there. Whoever reads this I would want you to learn from my mistake(s). Hopefully you will think before you say or do something stupid.
Well, what are you waiting for? Go out there and be nice to people and punch'em with patience!