I will set a cozy table for two. I will lay out my finest lace and china. We will sit shaded beneath a large weeping willow, surrounded by a fragrant wall of Antique pink and white roses. I will serve Him my best cup of tea and bake my most excellent cake, because God and I have much to talk about, so much of family and life to discuss.
Suddenly my heart leaps with unimaginable joy when I know that He has arrived. His magnificence is pure brilliance, and my happiness I can barely contain. I am in awe of His presence, thrilled that He has accepted my invitation to tea and conversation. With reverence I ask Him to please sit down, and I immediately find that I cannot even bare to look upon Him, so unworthy I feel. So I keep my eyes cast to the table, in respect of Him and this moment.
Before I speak, there is hallowed silence, save the birds chirping and singing in the near distance, and a kiss of a light warm breeze upon my face. And having been taught proper manners when speaking to God the Father, with humility I begin. But first I express sincere thankfulness for everything thus far, and then I show Him praise, as this is considered right and proper.
“Lord, thank you for coming;” I tell Him, “I am most honored! I would like to personally thank you for taking care of me all these years, for always providing for me, never abandoning me—never in my darkest hour—and even when I held anger and resentment towards you and didn’t deserve your guidance—brat and ungrateful that I was. You saw fit to see me come into this world when they all thought I would not make it. Actually, you’ve saved me many times. I don’t mean to seem ungrateful, but I can’t help but ask you, Why?”
I further dared to ask, “You have seen fit from the beginning to not only grant me life but also gave me the gift of family. Gifts I’ve always felt undeserving of. But you saw through to the core of me, you saw the emptiness in my life; you saw my heart as only You could see it, and again saw fit to show mercy, mercy I so desperately needed. Thank you, Lord!
“Over the years You have seen me and my family through our many trials and tribulations: the loss of our jobs, which saw the loss of money and loss of our home, which saw the loss of our pride and dignity when we had to beg others for help and refuge. When we lost dear ones, losses we could not comprehend or make sense of, and we doubted You, doubted Your love and mercy, You saw fit to continue to love and guide us through those dark storms. Thank you, Lord!
“And so, for Your faithful love from the very beginning, before I even knew and realized you were taking care of me, I commit my life to you now, for always!”
Yes, talking to Him felt so natural and comfortable, because I knew He listened without judgment; he listened with the heart and patience of a father. And when He left my garden, it was as if He’d never gone, as if He’d always been there. The imprint of His Glory and Holiness would be enough to fill and last me the rest of my lifetime.
We dream a life to be; we live to dream that life! (vka)