I am in a place of such gratitude that I thought I wanted to share this . I know life can be difficult and there are times where we may want to just give up or give in...but please remember you have so much more strength than you may know...
The last couple of weeks I have had surgery on my eyes...my vision over the years has gotten worse and worse and I was told years ago that I may not be able to read at some point in time. I have never spoken about this as I prefer always to focus on the positive and seldom will mention any problems I have had in life. The reason my vision was effected is because many years ago I was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis. Over 30 years later, you would not know this if we met, as I have been very blessed and I know my faith has kept me strong. I was just ending my marriage when I found this out. I had gone to the MS Clinic for two years while they studied me...First it was possible MS...then probable MS...then definite MS...and yes, I was very scared what life would be like. I had three children to raise, and it looked like I would be doing this now on my own. I cried and ranted and then said it was time to pick myself up and get on with life and take care of my children. I am sure most Mother know exactly what I meant. We are gifted by God as Mothers...to do whatever it takes to protect our children.
If you know me at all, you would understand my natural reaction to any problem is to turn it over to God. Although I have not gone to any church in years, my faith is what keeps me grounded in life. Basically I said to God..." you need to fix this and keep me strong, I have three children who need me now more than ever ...I place this in your hands " I am not sure we always know how very strong mentally and spiritually we are when we do surrender to something beyond our human limitations. I am not saying everyone thinks this or believes this, but I do know in my life this has been my strength and salvation. Believing this makes me know that whatever may come I will be protected and given the ability to handle it with grace.
Now I have new lens in my eyes and can see again so clearly. I will only need reading glasses and just a light prescription. The thing is I am so use to wearing glasses I have to get use to seeing this new person...lol...I don't know myself without my glasses. I am so grateful that I will not have to worry about not being able to read ...I am sure most of you can relate when you love the written word and writing holds such a special part in my heart and soul.
I do believe that whatever difficulty we are given, we also will be shown the way to overcome it and hopefully learn something that we can use to help others. I am not special, but I do have great faith in knowing we all have angels watching over us.
The one thing I would like you to take away from this is that we all have so much more strength than we may realize...Trust in grace, truly believe and bask in the beauty of surrender.