Time has kept me engrossed with triviality of life and in the bargain; I could not generously ponder over the fragile creations. From nowhere I tried hard to create and in this journey, many walked along with me, few carried on, few stayed for a while and left later. Few left unannounced, few made it conditional and few defined me as garbage and few find me as indifferent. Few very thoughtfully created their own world and at times they came back with placards on their face saying that I am not forgotten…In the calamity of forgotten promises, the dreary spell of my loneliness was never considered as casualty; it was rather tossed upon with disdain as illegitimate piece of existence and unworthy of any attention.
I should not wonder and must accept the verdicts with humility. Life has to move on and unmistakably I did try to be as real as I can, but every time reality bites. The reality is, I fail to assimilate the truth. Precinct of my own world, though hold no boundaries but still many wish to demarcate. The demarcation is starkly visible in their slurring references. Reality is that, I got alienated from the fact. I remained oblivious of the fact, that, I hold no divine right to propagate because I hold no credibility to be as their own. I humbly submit that I met in this life very honest and committed persons and I bow my head to them, in reverence. In my revering salutation to them, I say that I shall always remain indebted to them for making me a better person.
God give me courage for not to wince against setbacks and make me humble enough, so as not to mince any word, to belittle anybody’s stature. Keep me as sane as you can, my God. Let me not ever overestimate my own humbleness. Let me not assume my disposition as correct. My God, if you cannot correct me then keep them correct who holds the wisdom and the one who are enlightened. Enlighten them more to see the darkness with caution. Guide them God. Let them not drift …God please empower them
My God let no unholy alliance ever emerge or survive. Let this world be bereft of sinful. Let all the enactments of dreams be censured. Let the dream be as real as life; otherwise don’t let the dream ever colour anybody’s mind. God forgive me for my insensitivity. I dreamt the possibility and unknowingly encroached upon the sancta sanctorum of scared belief. God humbly I pray, that never let frivolous thoughts ever invade my mind and let no sundry emotions ever acquire space of my beliefs. Let everything be so calm and tranquil because in void and silence, I wish to explore the world, the world of peace within me. Let me beg, O! You God; you are the giver and forgiver too. Forgive my dreams and give me the truth…yes the same truth of which I remained unaware of…bless me my God with light which surely now I understand that I have never seen…show me the way…take me to the path which leads to the truth…