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I Will Never Be Alone As Long As I Am Here

by D. Sager (writer), In the wind, January 28, 2012

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...but for now, I look at her and imagine how she loves me

What violations of my self esteem and personal space have I allowed for unrequited affection?

I would do anything to keep from being alone. Pay any price, be used to the "nth" degree and never say a word. Being used is better than being alone. It stings knowing the object of my affection will hurt me, will maim my spirit, will destroy my forward progress. Still, I follow hard after her, pressing all into maintaining that relationship to avoid the terrors of being alone. What compromises have I willingly conceded to? What violations of my self-esteem and personal space have I allowed for unrequited affection? What tortures has my heart been through, even my body feeling the wretch of nerves on fire? Being addicted, not to a substance, but to a world of egocentric affection that I have created by taking the object of my affection and embellishing her to a fantastic degree. I should know better, I do know better. They should slap me awake, the voices of those around me, friends and family, concerned that I am "being used". Ignoring their advice, pushing away the voice of truth, I continue to live a world that only I see. Go away you bearers of truth, you wreckers of dreams, this is my world, I will not see it with your light! I take my script and apply it haphazardly, patching up the holes in the dike containing my empty dreams. Eagerly lapping up my lack of self-control and willful delusion, the actor in my play continues to feed my world of facades with empty compliments, cool affections, and eyes empty of love. One day I will wake up and grab hold of myself, one day I will acknowledge this self-imposed hell, one day...but for now, I look at her and imagine how she loves me.



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5 comments on I Will Never Be Alone As Long As I Am Here

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By Uttam Gill on January 28, 2012 at 09:34 pm

'Go away you bearers of truth, you wreckers of dreams, this is my world, I will not see it with your light! I take my script and apply it haphazardly, patching up the holes in the dike containing my empty dreams..."Sager I liked this very much..so well written...Keep it up

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By Betty B. on January 29, 2012 at 08:59 am

Just amazing so good..

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By Randy Mitchell on January 29, 2012 at 09:45 am

Very nicely written with lots of depth. Good writing.

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By D. Sager on January 29, 2012 at 11:04 am

Thank you all for your kind comments. I appreciate all feedback and yours has given me encouragement and inspiration. Peace.

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By Eva Grace on February 03, 2012 at 11:41 am

You're an amazingly descriptive writer... so full of depth and soul. Who ever SHE is... I hope she reads your article.

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