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by Felicia Stevenson (writer), Gatineau, Quebec, October 09, 2011

Credit: Felicia-May Stevenson
Black Sheep

A poem about my struggles with depression, anxiety and trying to find my place in this world.

There is a passenger that travels with me all of the time;
a negative entity that threatens to devour my soul

For years it has followed wherever I have gone,
and while it’s been quiet at times,
perhaps even dormant,
it always returns to haunt my waking dreams

Darkness that wraps me so tightly it takes my breath away,
and as all light slowly disappears,my sight narrows,
and all beauty and joy fades away,
eclipsed by the shadows of my sorrows

Then there’s another side of me,
one that's dying to be set free;
a positive being that knows its own worth

One that sees the pain in this world
and wants desperately to ease it’s misery;
a creative force that sees beauty in every person and in every thing,
but still hasn’t found the medium to express its message

I am split down to my core,
as the light of life and darkness of death fight for my soul,
and while my spirit is trapped in this body,
my essence is not of this world

So I continue to struggle with my duality
or await my turn to dissolve into nothingness.
as I try to find my path

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Felicia Stevenson is a writer for BrooWaha. For more information, visit the writer's website.
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By Kathleen on October 18, 2011 at 07:09 pm

When that dark force comes upon you, just say this affirmation again and again, "Praise Jesus, Thank You Jesus." All evil and all fear flee in the name of Jesus. You will literally feel the dark force jump off of you and you will have full captivity of your own body. A great book for you is "God Calling" written by two listeners published by A.J. Russel. Saying the rosary is also powerful with 15 promises that go with it. A blessed rosary is also powerful in your hand. Good Luck in discovering the power of the Lord.

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By Cielo on October 19, 2011 at 07:50 pm

It happens to some very special people—this duality; this unseen conflict within. I like to think of it not so much as a negative factor in my life, but as an amazing incomprehensible capability to feel emotions and to see things that are usually unperceived by the common people…writers and poets particularly are prone to this “duality”, and that is why we can write. We feel that what others cannot feel, we see things that pass by unseen by others… all in all—you are a special soul. I believe in a way this is in part some hereditary traits that goes back as far as Adam and Eve; back to the Garden of Eden and their struggle between good and even… but of course, that’s another theme… ;)


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By Cielo on October 19, 2011 at 07:52 pm

I meant to say "evil", not "even" ;)

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By Felicia Stevenson on October 20, 2011 at 12:59 am

Thank you so much Cielo, I agree whole heartedly that this a shared trait of a special breed. We do see, perceive and understand more than others... but sometimes I think ignorance must be bliss ;)

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By Angie Alaniz on October 22, 2011 at 02:36 am

Felicia, very moving. I feel your pain and understand about your essenes not being of this world.

My thoughts and prayers are with you now and sending you a warm ray of light towards your soul.

Life is a gift, and your part of it.

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By Felicia Stevenson on November 07, 2011 at 10:04 pm

Sorry Angie, I realize this comment is very old, for some reason I don't get notifications by email so I have to sift through my articles to see if I have new comments.

Thank you for your kind words, they are warm rays of light in of themselves.

Much Love xx

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